not ready

Why people always die just to find a job?

Many of us really want to have a though not so lucrative but a job well compensating.

After we graduated from any college or university our first goal is to find a job and practice our profession. The fire in our hearts and the desire to work is really there.

But how about if you are already working more than ten years? Can you still feel the desire? Is there still the fire? the urge? the love for work? Or we see our job as a bullsh*t disturbance from our sleep?

After ten years of doing the same things, we feel the boredom the laziness. We feel tired , useless, futile, frivolous. We wanted to try other things that will give us excitement and that will ignite the fire in us and continue to pursue our vow of duty and that is to consider your profession as a vocation. Not merely as a melting cow but as something that we really cannot live without.

Why not trying to be active. Join some worthwhile groups doing worthwhile activities , sports, mountain climbing, music, tree planting and a lot more. These will really help you a lot not only because your time will be spent but also because you will meet new friends and learn from their experiences.

Try to explore. Get out from your shell. Experience the world and its wonders.

Try ! You will not lose anything instead you will surely gain from it.

I already tried . :)

solitude

We sometimes want the solitude.

“I am afraid to show you who I really am, because if I show you who I really am, you might not like it--and that's all I got.”

We want to be alone because in being alone we will know ourselves more. We will be able to see and measure the things we can and the things we really want.

We want to be alone because in being alone we will discover our great potential..our real selves.

We want to be alone because in being alone we will understand why sometimes people don't understand us and sometimes neglect us.

We want to be alone because in being alone we have the chance to meditate and unburden our souls.

Yes...we want to be alone and as human we need to be alone at least sometimes.

I want to be alone........

I want to be alone because in being alone I can analyze things better.

I want to be alone because in being alone I can think of my flaws and plan to do something to cover those up.

I want to be alone because in being alone I can appreciate more the goodness of this world and simplicity of silence.

I want to be alone because in being alone I can look back to those happy memories of life and treasure them with gratefulness.

I want to be alone because in being alone I can discover who really am I .

I want to be alone because in being alone I can feed my spirit.

I want to be alone because in being alone I can find peace, happiness.... the ultimate bliss.

I want to be alone because in being alone I can describe myself.... the true me. SOLITUDE

thanks to Mr. Randy Badiola for the photo of the tree appeared on this post.

Indeed your photos are all inspiring.

so sad

I was supposed to divert my attention lately

I want to indulge myself in music, I was sooooooo excited when my friend Dred agreed that we will together learn the music to divert our attention because we are so fed up with everything.

I was supposed to buy the organ last weekend since I saw a sale about a month ago.

Sadly, it was already sold and the amount of the instrument which is available is three times the price of the one I want to.

So sad, I regret that i didn't buy the one that I saw last time.

Wheeew! there could be another time. And I will grab the opportunity so I wont regret it anymore.

waiting for the right time

My thinking for the forthcoming event of my life is killing me.

I have my future plans of how things should come my way. I have readied myself and prepared for this big decision. I do not want to go out from my comfort zone but if this will give future comfort of life then I am willing to take this risk. I am just hoping that everything will turn out really really well, as it was being planned. The things that I am going to leave are not simple, I have worked hard to attain this status for wherever I am today. And gained the respect of not only my students but also my colleagues and superiors.

I received different meritorious awards from this profession. I became an inspiration for many. Truly my name in a way or another was heard from the different corners in and out of this institution.

Nevertheless, I need to have a decision. A decision that I was supposed to do long time ago, during the time when I was not yet committed with anybody. Now, I will do this not only for myself but also for one member of the family. Time is passing and we cannot anymore hold the lost time of not being with the important people of our lives.

I will leave the place that is so dear to me. The people whom I loved so dearly. The things that I used to do everyday. I will take one of the most important step of my life. And I am praying that God will allow me to do it successfully. In His grace everything will fall into its right place.

I need a break sometimes

I am stressed!
I am fed up!

With the hassle bustle noise of this busy world, we might really get tired and fed up then we wanted to take a break.
I usually have tons of responsibilities on my shoulder everyday, from my hearing impaired classes to regular classes to my college classes. OMG! I want a break! But how? who will take the responsibility for my HI students? who will handle my fourth year regular class? and who will teach my college students about Cross Cultural Communication, Applied Linguistics, Language Testing and World Literature?

I am stressed.... so stressed....

I want to buy myself a piano this Christmas, I want to reroute my daily activities so I can have something to look forward to everyday.
I want to learn to drive.
I want to go to Palawan.

I want to go to the moon and eat pizza pie there.

we're getting there

It is true that to ease the pain and to mend a broken heart even spirit, you need to be with people who will help you to do it fast and effective. We're so lucky to have each other in this time of grief.

Family really is one the best gift from God. With the people you love ,you will heal the wounds easily, you will forget the pain and will only remember the things and the memories you had with your beloved who's with God now.

In time we will all be healed, in time we will be smiling, in time we will move on.... in God's time . We're getting there.

Nanay

She is the superwoman for us. The very disciplinarian. The most masungit but very loving nanay.

She will always make you feel that you are loved and cared. The most masipag and understanding. She will always touch you with her hands....yes her hands, we will not forget your hands nanay...... your hands pictured how you really love us , how you really care for us, how you work for us. I and my three other sisters know how you give and provide us the things we need. "Baluktot na mga daliri mo nay pero napaka lambot pa din nito, malambot pa din mga palad mo." We will not forget your hands... and we will never forget them and we cannot touch them again.

You are our strength.

When Ate gave birth for Ice , you were there . I saw how you feel the discomfort of seeing that your child is in the midst of the most difficult situation in the life of a woman. I witnessed how you moved from your seats and might even wish to bear all the pain that Ate was having that time.

When we discovered that Ate Sally was pregnant, you was so worried . You want to be with her . I remembered when you told us" " sabihin mo kay ate Sally mo umuwi na walang nag aasikaso sa kanilang mag- ina". We will never forget that.

When Nene graduated you are the happiest mother. We see how you were so sad when Nene didn't make the exam on the first try. And you gave Nene the most encouraging words to pursue and never to stop.

Your wish is to see us finish college and to have a good future. We are so thankful that value education so much because of that we strive to pursue and reach the status we are now.

I will never forget your touch every time I have a fever. You said ," si Ilah ang pinakasakitin kong anak, paglabas nyan sa liwanag bumahin na at may sipon na agad". " si ilah ang pinaka malaki kong anak 11 pounds yan", that is why I always adore you nanay because I know that you risk your life for me. And I failed you, I failed because I don't become a mother. I don't pay you back. I'm sorry nay....

We will always miss you